because the name Alvin is taken.

Anxious/ambivalent attachment style:

- Result of inconsistent/overbearing caregivers.

- Desire intimacy but worry their partners will not reciprocate their affection.

- Short lived romantic relationships, but enters relationships faster among the other type of attachment styles.

- Most upset when love not reciprocated.

Sternberg’s Triangular Theory of Love states that romantic love is a mix of intimacy and passion without commitment.

I always wonder whether what I’m feeling is human nature or there’s just something wrong with me.

I enter relationships that don’t last or are purely destructive to my emotions.

Perhaps I’m looking for something that is unattainable in nature. Maybe I’ve been wanting something that nobody has. Or somehow I’m doing something wrong?

Sometimes I get confused with what I’m feeling- I don’t know whether it’s a broken heart or a heart that wants to be broken.

I identify with what is called the ambivalent attachment style when it comes to investing my feelings in the opposite sex. I identify with what is said about the ambivalent attachment style and what causes it. I feel like there is always a void that needs to be filled whenever I’m alone.

Sometimes I miss my dad, most of the time I’m looking for something to fill that empty space.

Maybe I’ve been wanting to seek refuge in a person who is perceived by society as the person who would understand me the most. A sense of false security, a temporary relief, the desire to make myself whole.

Somehow deep down I know nothing would last, but still I invest a lot into it, as it made me whole. When it is over as it should be, there is a large space of emptiness. I’m left wondering what is happening to me.

Whenever I hear a song of particular significance, smell a subtle familiar scent, or see a sight that used to be encountered routinely, I feel that longing. It gets too intense at times that I’m overwhelmed by my own ineptness at dealing with my feelings.

Am I longing for the past or the future? I can never seem to answer that question.

The answer currently does not seem as important as wanting to feel whole.