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Having the lifestyle that I want within my grasp, but not being able to do so when I want it to happen.
Being the person that I want to be, but not being able to be who I want to be when I want to be who I want to be the most.
I guess it’s not my time yet.
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Bad experiences are worth living through.
I used to think that the world was against me, that the world was nothing but a dark and unpleasant place, where people are filled with negative intent. I felt like nobody understood me.
It took me a while, but I stood up and started my modest journey with the intent to cure a heartbreak. It was exhilarating, it was fun. I was shown a world filled with many characters beyond what I would have imagined. The world was a playground.
And today, I’m a happy person.
Why am I happy?
- All that is needed is a switch of perception. To just be positive goes a long way. That is what I’ve been doing, and that is all I need.
- I recognized that everyone has to have standards in life.
- I acknowledge that everyone is unique in their own way.
- There is no use in blaming others.
- Because life is a learning experience.
Being positive.
I used to be a very negative person. But what I don’t realize is that by being negative, I’m drawing negative energy to myself. When things weren’t going my way, I would be negative and whine about it. My whole day would be ruined. Doesn’t it sound familiar? By focusing on the positive things in life, the negatives don’t really seem like a big deal anymore. Soon, I started noticing good things that were happening to me, things that I wouldn’t notice if I was being so negative in the first place. The secret to being happy is so simple- be positive.
Standards in life.
This is especially true for Beta Males. Must we cling on and be needy for a person? Have we ever thought about how it feels like to be an attractive woman? To be a person who has choice, who has control, who makes decisions that she wants. Enough with nonsense about her being unique etc, because in reality she isn’t. You feel that way because you don’t have choice, you don’t have control, and the decisions you make are based on the limited choices that you have. There are quality people out there, which brings me to:
Everyone is unique in their own way.
I simply cannot understand how a person would judge another so harshly without even having an actual conversation with the said person. Nature aside, we’re all going through and have become a product of nurture. Social forces determine how we interact with people. Beneath that rough exterior, there is a uniqueness in every person’s core. The only way we could get in touch with this uniqueness if we took the effort to build rapport, comfort, trust and respect. All this wouldn’t happen if a person has already failed the first step: to judge before knowing. The battle is already lost before it even begun.
Blaming others?
There is no use in this, simply because it doesn’t bring any benefit in doing so. Why feel bad when you can feel good? Just recognize that it all happened because our game is not tight. Girlfriend cheated? Game not tight. Guy stealing girlfriend? Game not tight. I doubt that by being Alpha, these things would occur. Even if it did, an Alpha male would have left her before that, or be unaffected by it, knowing that he has to be positive, have better standards than before, improve his game, and have this mantra internalized:
Life is a learning experience.
I live life everyday by being positive, and by being positive I know that things will go my way. These standards that I set are achievable, and I know it, and am therefore not desperate and live the moment. I take the time to interact with everyone and anyone, because everyone is unique in their own way. I enjoy conversations with people because I don’t judge, and I don’t see myself as being better than others. I do not blame others on my misfortunes, because the only person that could do something about it is me. Instead, I make it a learning experience, because life is meant to teach us things that we have not yet learned. These are the reasons why, today, I’m happy.
Don’t hate the player, hate the game.
There is a point in time in everyone’s life when everything that he or she has worked for boils down to that very moment- the last run for an athlete in the Olympics, the final jump shot before the buzzer goes off in a basketball match, the speech to deliver which determines the fate of one’s victory in an election.
Your heart beats faster than what you’ve ever felt before. Your hand trembles. You sweat profusely. You feel like the weight on your shoulders is too big of a burden. You feel like you’re not able to do it.
We’ve all had those moments, maybe not as much in comparison of magnitude to world movers and shakers, but nevertheless mean more to us than anybody else.
It could be the final exam which you have been preparing for the whole semester.
It could be the song you are about to perform in front of your friends for the first time.
It could be the girl who lives opposite your place.
We would have many of these moments in life. Many of which would not be remembered because we realized that it was not as hard as we thought it would be.
Then there is the one that gives you that itch on your body which does not go away, the one that you would remember years from now as the significant turning point in your life, the one that you remember as ‘the one that got away’.
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We should be able to discern between what is the right and wrong decision. There is no in between, but what there is is a varying degree of right and wrong. When faced with a hard decision to make, there would be time to let it linger. The indecision can only linger for so long, because soon it would be time to make the call and move on.
The clock is ticking. My time is almost up.
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What constitutes personality? To what extent do our personality remain throughout our life span?
I went through a journey of self discovery throughout the past few months. One of which required a lot of self reflection and inner philosophical debate. Among the self reflection that I had was the necessity of my tendency to put a personality to a person; a personality which consists of mostly generalized overt behavior such as ‘lazy’ or ‘materialistic’. Am I right by putting a face to a person, or rather a drawing to an empty canvas?
Many would argue that acknowledging different people with a certain set of personalities would give meaning to our existence. We make sense of our world and get to live in it with a certain amount of predictability. We avoid the ones that gives an itch that cannot be relieved, and congregate with ones that gives us pleasure.
When I was much younger, I asked my dad the reason as to why people would want to sell their bodies to make a living. However little I earn, I would rather sweep the streets than to sell myself to strangers to quench their sexual appetite. I opposed prostitution with a burning desire.
But who am I to judge?
Have I been nurtured in equal conditions and turned out better than them?
The fact is I would not know if I would turn out better. I was not born in a rural village in China, I was not deprived of basic necessities to live, I was not given a fake promise to support my family while working in a distant land. I do not know this stranger. Who am I to pass judgment on a person whom I’ve not even spoken to?
I’m sure that everyone at some point in their lives have passed judgment on a population which consists of faces that they have not spoken to- girls that go to clubs are bad, Malays are lazy, rich boys are players.
Have we ever questioned ourselves on how shallow we are?
We may only be a single person, but what we do not realize is that one person brings a significant change. It may seem that the way we think does not carry weight in how the world revolves, but it only took one person to murder millions of innocent people to build a great Aryan nation, one person to rape, torture and behead countless of Chinese citizens, one person to drive a whole country into bankruptcy.
Hearsay does not make a person. Past experiences does not define a stranger.
We were just being ignorant and shallow.
It is hard to dissect and analyze every stereotype that I have. More so since it has helped me understand and survive in this world that I’ve lived in for the past 20 years. Though there should come a time when we have learned enough about the world to stand on our own two feet, and by that time we should be able to define a person by actual interaction and not prejudgment of a person just because he or she shares similarities with ones that we have encountered.
I might have deviated from my original content, but what I am trying to say is making a sweeping statement or passing judgment on a person we have not met or barely even know should not happen once we have matured from conventional thinking. I have grown out of it, when would most people do? Changing the way we think goes a long way, from making a person’s day to extremes such as reducing racial hatred.
Have a conversation with a stranger. Have lunch with a beggar. Have coffee with a prostitute. Everyone has a story to tell.
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Hey guys,
I haven’t been posting much due to the fact that I have had so much to do. For the past month (or maybe even more, my memory is being dodgy), I have been:
1) Preparing and sitting for my guitar exam. I was only notified two weeks before the exam. I don’t know if I’ll pass omg.
2) Preparing (well, not really, but I think about it alot, if that counts) for a dance performance. I probably did screw up on stage, but I think I performed above my own expectations 
3) Thinking about my studies.
4) Finishing assignments.
5) Going out with friends.
6) Spending time with my brother from another mother (extremely important!).
I’m having two papers from my ADP subjects next week. A couple of weeks after that would be my B. Psych finals.
I’ve learned a lot during the course of this semester. I’ve learned to open up my mind, broaden my worldview, and have certainly matured more as a person. Although it has been challenging taking up these combination of subjects, but it’s really enriching to be able to learn so much in such a limited amount of time. I might not be able to maintain my CGPA, but it has been a wonderful experience 
. I never knew formal education would have this impact on me.
Well, it has been a semester full of ups and downs (plus a fair share of alcohol) both academically and personally. I’m glad that I did not take the easy way out.
The blog would not be as active till this is all over. Good night folks.
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